What is Clairsentience?

Clairsentience. What is it? I know that it describes my intuitive abilities but I still had to Google it. You must be saying to yourself, “I thought Wendi taught intuitive development classes?” Oh, I do. I talk about the clairs in my classes and I can talk about them after I research. The purpose is to allow people to connect to the concepts tangibly. The actual definition of clairsentience is “a form of extra-sensory perception where a person acquires psychic knowledge primarily by means of feeling” However, in my classes, I find it easier to teach from personal experience. Personally, I find labels to be annoying, but only because I have the worst memory in the entire world.

I don’t remember a lot of information. I have been this way my entire life, even when I was little. It took my older brothers a while, as in months, to get me to remember MY OWN BIRTHDAY. Needless to say, my absentminded behavior was fodder for constant teasing. and as the youngest child out of 3, it was kind of a rite of passage. Unfortunately , I didn’t understand why I couldn’t remember simple things as a child. I felt pretty dumb, especially at school. I had to study very hard in Math in Science while English and Literature came naturally and easily for me. I was constantly distracted in the classroom and felt overwhelmed by the fluorescent lighting. My eyes watered so much that everyone thought I was crying. I was picking up on the subtle energy and emotions in the room. I heard every little sound. My mind would drift off to my imaginary place of peace. Sometimes I would just fall asleep. I was tired all of the time. No one explained clairsentience, no one taught me what it meant to feel everything, to transmute energy. Needless to say, I was distracted all of the time. Today, it would be labeled as Attention Deficit Disorder (definitely not clairsentience).

I have a terrible time remembering names. I can remember everything about a person except for their name. (Again, I don’t like labels.) I am a feeler. I will know your life’s story, except for the name part. However, I can remember every song, band name, artist, and details of an album that I love. I really love music, and because I can connect to music through sentience, I am able to remember details that I normally would neglect because I can feel them.

I am clairsentient. I navigate my life through feeling; therefore, the logical part of my brain kind of sits back and doesn’t always contribute. It took me years to learn how to balance the logical and emotional aspects of my human self. As someone who is a feeler, I am also anxious because I can feel subtle energy shifts and when someone is lying. I can feel when there is danger, but if I am not able to see the danger, my logical mind will convince me that I’m fine even though I am still feeling afraid.  This can cause a lot of confusion and self-doubt. During a Reiki session, I can feel emotions that are subtle, and my clients are shocked that I can sense them because they are hidden. Sometimes, deceased relatives come through, and they communicate with me through emotions, and I will translate the feelings into words. Sometimes they show me pictures. I will get emotional during my sessions, especially if I am connecting to loss or pain. I can feel physical pain or ailments in my body when I work with someone. If someone has pain in their shoulder, I usually will as well. They don’t always tell me about the pain before I feel it.

I love to write because I can take my time cultivating words that I would normally struggle with if I were put on the spot. I am able to articulate feelings that I can explain more effectively when expressed through writing. I love art, music, movement. I prefer to express my emotions, but because they are so deeply intertwined with my entire being, it can be overwhelming.

I love everyone. I don’t say that lightly or in a drunken stupor. I say it because I connect to people through the heart. I used to be deeply hurt by people who would reject me or think they were better. I can handle teasing, but I have zero tolerance for bullies. I have had a lot of people take advantage of the kindness I offered. I would people-please a lot throughout my life without realizing the repercussions this would have on my self-worth. I thought that if I could make people happy, then I would be happy. This is survival for empaths.

My life has been lonely sometimes. I have learned a lot of things the hard way. One of the biggest things that I have learned is that reality is so much more than what the eyes can see. There is an entire universe in all of us, just waiting to be discovered. We are more than labels, jobs, or roles that we play in our lives. When we can see beyond the external construct of reality, we will see an ocean of interconnection and love.

Recently, I looked up what my name means. It turns out Wendi means “friend” and “blessed ring,” which also has spiritual attributes because it is a divine connection between friends with deep trust. Some translations say that it means “wanderer,” which is funny because I spent most of my younger years traveling around the country. I would do just about anything for anyone. If I trust someone, it means that I love them dearly and would drop everything to help in any situation. Intimacy is not as much physical as it is emotional for me. I don’t trust easily, and I certainly don’t ask for help. I have been burned many times throughout my life because I didn’t listen to my intuition, so I tend to keep my close friends very close. If you are into astrology, my signs are mostly water and fire. Scorpio sun, Cancer moon, and I won’t bore you with the rest, but it’s mostly Scorpio and Sagittarius and some more water mixed with fire. I have an even mix of feminine and masculine energies. I didn’t come here to be logical or to label, and I definitely didn’t come here to conform. I came to transform and transmute through authenticity and unconditional love. Just please don’t ever ask me to remember ANYthing.